Monday, May 21, 2012

Disney Discipline



On top of my fridge I have Mickey and Minnie Mouse stuffed animals that match my kitchen decor. Being the spanko that I am, I decided to arrange them in a way that would make Chief laugh, think it was cute and in turn thinking I was cute so it would hopefully fulfill my attempt in softening him up for my upcoming punishment I had coming today. 

Did he laugh? 
Yes! 

Did he think it was cute?
Yes!

Did he think I was cute? 
Yes! 

Did it work to soften it up? 
HELL NO! 

*grumbles... but I still think the pic is worth sharing even tho he did not take it easy on me. I am posting this on my tummy as I lay here with a burning bottom, but I am so very grateful and blessed to have such a loving yet firm Dom who takes the time to correct me when I need it. Thank you and I love you Sir! :)

~cas[C]



A reply to cas,


It was funny babe and you are too cute, but I will repeat my comments from this morning "It looks like we have eyes on us and they are not only watching us, but following our example too. Since it clearly appears that I am a role model and influential to Mickey's understanding of this lifestyle, I will just have to make sure to show him how it is done and let him know that follow through and being firm are essential don't you agree? I mean you wouldn't want to let them down and steer them in the wrong direction would you?"


Chief [c]

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Sleep eludes her!



Sleep have been a struggle between cas and I ever since I met her. Her first spanking I ever gave her was over me extending her bed time and the next morning when she had to get up at 5 am. I found out that she stayed up till like 4 am. When I asked her if she went to bed on time, she admitted she didn't.  When I asked her what time she went to bed, she came back with some attitude saying, “what does it matter?” Well all that got her was a red bottom and some lines.

Fast forward to now and she not only pulled an all nighter, but then missed work. That is unacceptable for a woman. I would expect that from a teen but not a grown woman. I was livid. She had to apologize to her boss in writing.

A hint for tomorrow!
Tomorrow morning I am going to roll up my sleeves and I can guarantee that her bottom will be black and blue. I do not put up with irresponsible behavior like this.

Tomorrow I will post what exactly I punished her with. It is not going to be for the faint of heart and she will be sleeping on her tummy tomorrow night.
    


Chief[c]                
                                                                                               

slumber blunder...


Let me start by saying I struggle with sleep and I tend to fight it with everything in me, I don’t know why but I do, especially when Chief is not here.

Chief was gone camping with some buddies this weekend while I stayed home. Now granted, I don’t have a bedtime on the weekends, but that still means I need to get to bed at a reasonable hour and attempt to get some sleep.

Friday night I didn't do that. I was missing Chief, I didn't take my pills and I was chatting in the D/s room on paltalk I just found. I tend to fight sleep anyways but with me chatting it was easy to lose track of time. Occasionally I would think “wow it is getting late, I should get to bed” but would stay a bit longer and then plan to get off.

The thing is… time got away from me and before I knew it, the sun was coming up. It was around 6:00 am before I got off the computer and yes I was very tired. I knew Chief was calling me at 7 to talk on his morning walk and so I didn’t want to fall asleep before that, so I took a shower to try to wake myself up.

He called and of course he immediately asked “How did you sleep?” At first I tried to trick him and answered back with “Well it wasn’t a good night”, but he was too smart for that and once again asked how I slept. I was planning on telling him anyways but I was trying to postpone it. I told him and of course he was pretty upset and rightfully so. I knew I was in trouble and come Monday I was gonna be hurting.

When I got off of the phone with him I decided to lay down for a very little bit. This is the part of the post where I need to also say that I was supposed to work at the zoo today, helping out with a special event. Because I knew I would sleep hard, I made sure that my phone alarm was not only near my head so I could feel the vibrations and wake up like normal, but I also made sure it was actually touching my head. There was no way I would not feel this and wake up in time.

That was probably true, except for the fact that in my sleepiness, I set my alarm for pm instead of am. My alarm never went off, and I never woke up. When I finally did wake, it was way past the time I needed to go in to work and the event was almost over. I was mortified! I do not miss work and people were counting on me. I emailed my boss and let her know what happened. Then took a deep breath and texted Chief. I was somewhat vague but within minutes he called and demanded the whole story.

Let me tell you… if you thought I was in trouble with the not sleeping thing that is nothing compared to the now combined trouble of missing work. He was so disappointed in me, I let myself down, him down and everyone at the zoo down. While on the phone, my boss emails me back telling me that it is ok, not to worry about it and that these things happen. I was shocked but grateful. Chief was relieved but in no way calmed by it. He replied “She may be being nice, but I am not going to” I shuddered.

Nothing he can say can make me feel worse than I already do, but that doesn’t mean it is not his job to lecture and correct me regardless, and trust me lecture and correct is what he will do. I cannot believe I was that irresponsible and immature and I know that whatever punishment I have coming tomorrow is justified, deserved and needed.

I never want to make that same mistake again and I know that with Chief’s help I won’t. I know that my bottom is not the only thing that is going to pay tomorrow. I know that I will have stricter rules set and he will watch me more carefully and that reassures me of both his love and his care for me to succeed.

I already have set my phone to military time so that the am/pm mix up will never happen again, but I know that we will be having a long discussion on what else needs to change to prevent not only me staying up all night again, but me being so irresponsible that by staying up I missed work. I am assuming my no weekend bedtime is a thing of the past.

I am truly remorseful and want to change so I will take this punishment humbly and obediently, even though I am so nervous I can barely type. Chief I am sorry I disappointed you and I will assure you that this will never happen again. I know you forgive me but I still need to pay for what I did and I also need to in time forgive myself. Thank you for loving me in spite of my irresponsibility and carelessness and for wanting to do everything you can to help me better myself and succeed. I could not ask for a better friend, lover or Dom. I am on my knees before you and I love you with all my heart. 

~cas[C]

And it burns, burns, burns... the cream of fire!


Before I even start my post I would like to apologize for not writing anything the last two weeks. Our lives have been crazy busy and intense. I will try to be better at keeping the blog more up to date from now on. Now to the post... this is response to my silent spanking on Tuesday that he posted about, I am just not getting to it. 

OH MY GOODNESS!!! Note to self and warning to all others reading… Capsaicin Cream is EVIL!!! 

I am not going into what I did, but it was something worse than normal. We both knew the punishment could not wait as I was already beating myself up over it and my heart was burning inside from the hurt and mess I caused, as was Chief's heart as well I imagine. The problem was that we have been so busy that between my doctor’s appointments and his meetings, we had to resort to an alternative. 

Now I have had lines to write, and soap or Tabasco in the mouth, grounding, you name it, but this needed to have the feel of a spanking even though we didn’t have the time. The hand spanking was a quick one but still hurt, anyone who says “just a hand spanking” has never really gotten one I think. Anyways, I knew what was coming after. It has been years since I have had something this extreme on my bottom. I do occasionally get Icy Hot after a spanking, but let me be the first to tell you that Icy Hot ain’t got nothing on this stuff.

At first it didn’t burn at all, it actually soothed it and felt nice, but I knew that it would soon change. He had to leave for a meeting but as I waited for the fire to start, he made me sit on a hardwood chair and not move until he told me too. It took about 30-40 minutes to kick in and eventually the burning sensation started slowly and continued to increase steadily and painfully. 

For those who have never gotten this horrible treatment, I will tell you that it feels like there is a match under my bottom, like I am sitting on red hot coals. My bottom was on fire, just as my heart and his heart was from my actions. 

It finally got to the point where I was texting him like crazy telling him of the flaming heat and eventually calling him crying and pleading for him to let me wash it off. The burning was so intense. He listened to my cries but still would not let me get off the chair for about 45 minutes. 

When he finally said I could get up and wash it off, I ran and got the milk. The only thing on my mind was washing this cream off my smoldering bottom. Water will soothe but it doesn't take it off and only lasts a few seconds. The only way we have found that works is taking a glass of milk and a rag and soaking the rag over and over again in the milk and rubbing and washing your bottom with it. The relief is instant but it still takes a lot to wash it all off. At first I thought I had gotten it all off because it felt so good, but about 15 minutes later it started burning again, not as bad but still. After more milk, my bottom was finally back to almost normal. 

I still felt it a little but not enough to be unbearable, just enough to serve as a reminder the rest of the day. I am here to say that I will do everything in my power to try to avoid this type of punishment in the future. However, I am thankful that he was able to take care of it and loves me enough to not put it off until we could get to it. I am sorry Sir, thank you and I love you. 

~cas[C]

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Time Crunch

There are some things that cas needs corrections for occasionally and it is time sensitive so we need to take care of it right away however, with our busy lives, our time apart and deadlines to meet sometimes we need to take care of her attitude or behavior another way.  Today is such a day. I told her to go to the store and get some Capsaicin Cream and have it ready for this afternoon. She is going to get a quick over my knee hand spanking then (with rubber gloves) I am applying a little pea size drop of this wicked cream on each cheek of her bottom. In a half hour she will be squirming and begging for me to let her wash it off. Depending on how I feel it will be a while before I tell her to get a cup of milk and wash her bottom. (That is the only way to stop it we have found). This punishment is used sparingly because of its intensity, but today with all my meetings and her busy schedule it’s the only way we can get this done. Sorry baby.