i'm sorry Sir... (a poem by me)

I know I've let you down Sir, 

Caused more pain than you let show;

I can sit and say I'm sorry,

But it’s not enough I know.

You deserve much more

Than what I put you through;

But if you give me one more chance

I swear I’ll make it up to you...

There is nothing I can say that will erase the hurt I gave you;

I only ask for your forgiveness and faith in me to start anew.

I know that you need more from me, and time and again I always fail;

And maybe I'm not right for you, but I'm begging, please don’t bail.

I know that there are times where I act so selfishly;

I don’t treat you like I need to and my views are all I see.

But that is not what I desire and surely not what you deserve;

You give me more than I can ask for and now its time for me to serve.

I want to give you pleasure and to shower you with love;

Then moments like this morning come, times I'm not proud of.

I do not know what comes over me or what goes through my mind;

Its like my ears can hear again, but my eyes go blind.

I lose focus on the gift God gave me, the gift I don’t deserve;

The gift I need to love and cherish, the gift I should preserve.

So here is my new promise, my pledge, my word, my vow;

To honor, obey, respect and serve this gift that I have now.

If you wonder who or what this gift is, by now it should be clear;

Look no further from yourself my Sir, for it is you that I hold dear.

I love you so much and I'm really sorry Sir, please forgive me. 

~cas[C]