It may have been Friday the 13th to everyone else, but to me it was our anniversary of sorts. 5 months ago, I accepted the collar of the man I love. I am sooooo lucky to have him in my life. Despite all the brain tumors, hearing loss, stress and everything else, I am still so blessed and happy to have Chief in my life.
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I know that most people will never understand the idea of a
D/s relationship, but for me, it is all I will ever have. My need to be
submissive and to be dominated is just as much a part of me as my need to love
and care for someone. It completes me. It is a safe feeling and it allows me to
be free to be all that I am.
But not just anyone can be my demand my submission, in fact
NOONE can demand it. It is a gift I choose to give. It is a gift to a special
kind of man, chosen by me, and sent for me by God. It is a decision I do not
take lightly, but one made after hours of thinking on it and praying and
seeking God’s wisdom.
The man I call my Dom is one of a kind and even though I
have given him my submission and accepted his collar, it is I who feels like he
is the gift to me.
What makes him so special and worthy to be my Dom and my
love?
First and foremost, he is a Christian and loves God with all
his heart. He trusts Jesus and leans on Him, praying and reading His word,
following Him and allowing God to guide him in his life. He is confident yet
humble. He isn’t perfect, nor does he pretend to be. He is slow to anger and
quick to listen. He is one of the most patient men I know, which for me is
important, because I know I can be very strong-willed, stubborn, and trying at times.
He is firm but fair. He leads by example and always listens.
He tries to provide for my every need and care as much as he can. He wants to
shape me and help me become a better Christian and woman, seeing in me someone,
who in his mind can achieve much higher and much greater than I can see. He
believes in me more than I believe in myself. He takes great pride in my
successes and he should because after all, he helped mold me. He sees it as his
job to protect me, both from the outside world and from myself.
He hates to see me hurting and even though he hates to have
to punish me, he knows it is something that is needed. This takes great
strength on his part. It takes strength to shape me to his needs and desires;
it takes strength to be my confidant, my shoulder, my anchor; it takes strength
to let me out in the world when all he wants to do is hold me close in his
arms; it takes strength to do what is needed when I have to be disciplined; it
takes strength and he has it, and I am grateful and respect him for it.
He knows the value of discipline, though at times his soft
heart gets the best of him and that is ok too. He knows that in order for me to
be the best I can possibly be, he must be firm and follow through unless geared
otherwise by circumstances. He uses God’s guidance, his personal experiences
and wisdom in life and his ever growing knowledge of me to provide a proper
direction and punishment when needed. He knows this hurts me and that my tears
and my cries tear at his heart, but he also knows that it is for my own good.
He provides something else important as well… acceptance and
security.
I am safe in his arms because he knows me, all of me and he
still loves me. He knows my secrets, my nightmares, my horrors and of course my
faults and it doesn't matter. To him, I am beautiful and he accepts every part of
me as I do him. He works to emphasize the good in me while improving the bad.
He loves me as much for who I am now as for who I will become in the future
with his guidance. He would not and could not invest so much of himself in
someone he did not love completely and I need to remember that when my
insecurities start to haunt me.
This love would not be possible without respect. I need to
give him the respect I have for him and show him the gratefulness in my heart
for who he is and what he does. He should be able to be feel great pride in me.
He needs to know that I can hold my own in the outside world but still submit
to him. He holds the greatest respect for the gift I have given to him and he
knows that I can choose to be with any man, but I choose him. I need to keep
that in mind that he chose me as well. He knows that with that, it makes
discipline a priority in our lives. I must trust him, but in order for me to do
so, I must know that he means what he say and trust me, he does and it
constantly deepens my respect for him. The discipline is also important when it
comes to my protection. He is the one who makes the decisions about how I
relate to the world in general, in our relationship and in my personal life and
I need to remember that and honor that more than I do without struggling. His
discipline ensures that I follow the rules he give me, making him the male
authority in my life and he uses that power to enrich my life rather than crush
it.
Thank you Jesus for giving him to me and help me to be the
best sub I can be for him from now on. Help my respect for him match his love
for me.
He is my earthly savior, my shining star sent down from
heaven to guide me and lead me to where God wants me to be. He is my skin on
God and I am truly blessed for I have found my lucky star, my compass on this
deployment, my captain, my Quartermaster…
~cas[C]
Chief's Response
Baby this has been an amazing journey between the two of us, and although you have worn my collar for 5 months, you have been in my heart much longer. We have come so far and have so much further to go. With God’s help the skies are the limit.
You have permeated my soul and I thank God daily that you chose me to give your submission to.
Some of the most amazing things (that I stand in awe as I watch)
As we celebrate this 5 month anniversary. I am reminded that we are such a great team and that’s why God put us together.
Chief's Response
Baby this has been an amazing journey between the two of us, and although you have worn my collar for 5 months, you have been in my heart much longer. We have come so far and have so much further to go. With God’s help the skies are the limit.
You have permeated my soul and I thank God daily that you chose me to give your submission to.
That collar that I gave you and that you wear
proudly is just a symbol of our love and how we take care of each other.
Some of the most amazing things (that I stand in awe as I watch)
1. Your selflessness. You are always there for
me day and night and you serve me.
2. Your perseverance. Despite what life throws
at you, you roll up your sleeves and face it boldly
3. Your strength. Mental strength, physical
strength are both so strong. You and I know what you have gone through and you
have bounced back
4. Your love for others. You love people so
much and I follow your lead
5. Your love and faith in God. Without this
the other four would not be possible.
As we celebrate this 5 month anniversary. I am reminded that we are such a great team and that’s why God put us together.
Happy Anniversary, I love you baby. Hugs
Chief [c]
